Owenegaut, the cave of the Morrigan.
I sat on my couch in the early hours of the morning, and cried. I cried for the state of our nation, I cried for the lies that are spoken, I cried for the hate mongering and xenophobia. I cried for the Muslims, and I cried for the under-employed youth of our nation. I cried for my friends who are Queer. I cried for Black Mothers who fear for the lives of their children, and the Native American who fight for their lands. I cried for the water in Flint Michigan, and all the waters of the world. I cried for the living, and I cried for the dead. I cried for those who have no dreams in sight, and for those whose dreams have been washed away in a haze of disdain.
I cried for the world, and the world cried with me.
There is a heaviness to our world right now, and many of us feel overwhelmed by the weigh of it. We are emotionally exhausted, and many are living in a low level state of fear; wondering what is to come next, how far will this craziness go. We know that the outside world is looking at our country like we have gone completely bat-shit crazy. We keep hoping that we will wake up and this will all be a nightmare, and we can go back to life as normal.
Well we cannot go back to life as normal, nor could we stay in the sedated place of non-action we have existed in for the last few decades. There is a sickness in our nation, and often as it is will illness, it must get worse before it gets better. Like a body fighting off a virus we must rise to the occasion, utilize our antibodies and take action against that which is causing us harm. This sickness is not something that came out of no where. It has been there for a very long time, under the surface, running us down. It was inevitable that we would come to a moment in time such as this, for a people who feel hopeless will often make rash decisions, and often those decisions will lead to crisis.
We are in a time of crisis. But crisis is not all bad. Crisis sheds light on that which we have kept festering in the dark. Crisis brings opportunity. Crisis demands action, pushing us off our fat rumps. Crisis gathers our neighbors, friends, and community to our side. It bolsters us, and melds us into a force of unity.
When a natural disaster hits an area, people come out in the masses, neighbor stands by neighbor, lending a hand where needed, getting the job done, without the regular bullshit of “I have things to do”. There is nothing more important at that moment then the crisis at hand.
We are living in such times. For some of us the storm has not hit close enough for us to get excited yet, to prepare ourselves for action. But it is only a matter of time, before even the sheltered hermits among us, must descend from the forest to see what the fuck is going on. Such times are meant for community to stand together, to unite as a force bigger then any one man or woman ever could be.
I do not ask you who you voted for, I do not ask you to march or to protest. I ask you to consider your life, and the life of your neighbor, and your community, and to ask yourself “What do I stand for?” I ask you to come together with your neighbors, and friends, and to start a discussion on that. “How do we stay strong together in these times of struggle”. “Will I wait until they are coming for someone I know?” “Will I hide my head in the sand and say nothing, do nothing, while the country I love becomes less?”
I believe in America! I believe in the people of America. We are a nation that has been made stronger because we are a melting pot. We are a like a good mutt, stronger and smarter for the mixing of our bloodlines.
My Ancestors knew persecution. My great grandmother had to hide her Native blood as a child, for fear of being taken away to an Indian school. My Irish relatives from my fathers side were Traveling People, or Gypsies. They knew what it was like to be scorned and discriminated against. I myself am a Psychic and a Witch. We all know how I would have been treated a few centuries ago.
I am sure that each of us has a family story in which our Ancestors experienced persecution for one thing or another, from their nationality of origin, color of their skin, religion, sexual preference or simply their economic status. If we take a moment to sit with ourselves, and connect with our Ancestors, we will see that this fight for equality, and justice is something that is personal to each and every one of us. “There but for the grace of God, goes I”.
The first step to overcoming this calamity, that has beset our nation is to stop letting FEAR run the show. Fear is the soul eater, it causes us to run scared, bury our heads in the sand, shove Ring-dings into our mouth, drink too much and pace endlessly in the loop of our mind. It has no value, other then to let us know that something is not right. It is an alarm, and like all alarms, once they have alerted us to the situation their job is done.
DO NOT FALL BACK ASLEEP! Fear gave us the alarm, it alerted us to the fucked up situation that is around us. Now we must take action, we must get moving, get organized, and come together. I am not asking you to picket, I am not asking you to march. I am asking you to become a supporter of your community. It makes us feel good to help others, it takes our mind off of fear, and gives us purpose. Look at the situation at hand and ask what you can do. Whatever it is you choose to do, please, please, connect with your community. This alone will help you to find your spot.
GET CENTERED…understand that mixed into this slurry of chaos is the fact that we are going through a Psychic Evolution. We are changing as a species, becoming more attuned to the world around us. We are becoming EMPATHIC as a people, developing the ability to sense the emotions of others. This adds a lot to the mix, for it means that the fear, and anxiety we are feeling is not just ours. It belongs to the guy sitting next to us on the bus, and the co-worker who is sucking down sugar like a feen; trying to feel something other then worry. It belongs to our mother, our kids, our husband, and our friends.
Empathy is an interesting thing, for it works both ways. Those of us, who are the most Empathic, are also the best at sending our emotions out. In this way, the Empaths are broadcasting emotions out into the world. The problem is most Empaths don’t know a thing about how to control it. So we sit there absorbing the pain and suffering, and then we turn around and amplify those feelings, before sending them out like a wave around us.
What if we, the Empaths decided we were going to utilize this knowledge and choose what we were going to broadcast out? What if we chose to send out Love instead of Hate, and Bravery instead of Fear. After all they are simply opposite ends of a pendulum swing.
Just for today, choose to be an ambassador of Love. Whatever lands in your lap, whatever news you hear, whatever approach you take to the situations of your day, choose love. Choose your words to support, and strengthen, not to degrade and breakdown. Even when standing against apposing forces we can choose to do so with love. We can choose to see that what we stand against is already broken, and that by embracing hate we are perpetuating that which we do not want. Because hate destroys us from within. It consumes us, torments us, and leaves us empty. Love gives us hope, love supports us, strengthens us, and pushes us to be more.
Do not stick your head in the sand, stand bravely and with purpose, but do so with love and kindness. Do not sink to the level of name calling and trash talking, that gets us no where. Move with purpose, act with forethought, and find your center. When we choose bravery and love, we are no longer victims, we are crusaders out to make a difference in whatever way we can.
Know that you do not walk alone in these hard times, our Ancestors are walking with us. Not just our personal Ancestors, but the Ancestors of our country. Those proud Americans who have fought for this country we call home. I am proud to be an American, even if I am not proud of the state it is in at this moment. I love this land, I love it’s people, I love my community, and my neighbors, and my sweet loving family. I love you, and I believe in you.
Finding my words stops my tears, and my fears. I too have moments when it feels overwhelming, and I want to go back to bed and wake up when it’s over. But then I remember I was made for such times, I chose to come in at this moment and in this place. So I will put on my mud boots, and get ready to clean some shit up. I hope you decide to join me, I hope you decide to replace hate with love, and I hope you see just how powerful you are.